Yikes - I realized something on Saturday that I am wrestling with.....
I am completely defined by my husband and my children!
I got to actually go sit at Starbucks with a friend and run to Kohls and the dry cleaner. I was in the BD's car and I really felt so strange. It was great - don't get me wrong BUT I am so rarely alone - so rarely without at least some of them that I felt strange. When I drove through the dry cleaners, I wanted to explain to the woman why I was in the car and not the minivan with three car seats. I was sitting outside of Starbucks enjoying the beautiful day (Texas weather - it was 80 degrees on Saturday and high of 45 on Sunday) Anyway - I digress.......outside of Starbucks, I felt like explaining to the people around me that I am really a wife and a mother and was just taking a short break.
I also - don't really care. Right now - my life is all about them and you know what - that works for them and works for me. I don't think I am losing myself but really finding myself.....
Anyway - the Mom "debate" has always made me crazy. Why is it a debate? Why would I ever dream of telling you whether you should go to work or stay home? Would I tell your husband that? No - it is none of my business what my sisters chose to do - I make my own choices - I let them make theirs......... I consider myself a proud strong stay at home Mom - my choices, my decisions. I was surprised by the realization that at this moment in my life - my work, my life, my choices are all centered around them.
How crazy is that?
What about you? Do you ever feel like this?