I want the journey but I wish.....

I could have the rewind........

I have been on this amazing journey. I met this kind man. Together he and I made the three most amazing children. They grow each day. Each day they learn something new and I am so looking forward to seeing what they do tomorrow. I don't want to go back. I don't want the younger husband. I love the one I have now and I love him more every day for each step of the journey that we take together but when it all comes down to it - when we part - I know that I will wish that we could go back - that we could rewind.........

The same goes for my children. I am loving this phase of life - school and soccer and playing outside and family outings that don't involve crying jags or puking. I love my children more every day because of the trip that I am able to take with them but each day - they get bigger. Each day - they are farther away from being the babies that we made and closer to being the adults that we cannot wait to meet.

I am excited for the journey that I am on. I am on it for life and I don't want to go back. I don't want new babies or a new husband - I want to find out what happens with the ones that I cherish but I do have moments.......

Little moments like the night before my youngest - my baby boy - my miracle child - turns 3 that I wish......

I could just rewind - just for a minute - and taste it and feel it and breathe it one more time.