If you had told me.....

If you had told me a year ago that I would let 4 months go by on the Bowheads blog without a word from me I would have said...

No - not me - I will always have time to jot down my little stories.

If you had told me 15 years ago that I would be teaching third grade in a little town in Massachusetts I would have said...

No - not me - I am good with the babies. I will always teach Kindergarten and Massachusetts? Where is that?

If you had told me 12 years ago that the baby girl with the curls that I held in my arms would be as tall as I am by the time she was 12 and would be sitting in the front seat chatting with me about life I would have said

No - not then - that is way too fast. Not in 12 years

If you had told me 7 years ago when my sweet baby boy was born that I would be sitting around a campfire on a cool April day in a little New England town sitting under a blanket laughing until I cried because he was singing a song about a Red Solo Cup and had just finished an animated verse with "Freddie Mac kiss my A$$ - WHOO" I would have said....

Are you crazy?

Anyway I digress....

If you had told me 6 years ago that the 3 year old that I would spend hours sitting and literally watching her breathe would be so strong and healthy. If you had told me as I bathed her sores and pounded her back and held her hand as she did her nebulizer treatments that she would become quite literally one of the strongest and most independent people I know I would have said

No - that is my hope and dream but not this one. She is too frail. She is too sick.

If you had told me 18 years ago that I would still love my husband with my whole heart as much as I did from the very beginning I would have said

Yes - yes I know.

If you had told me 20 years ago that I would still talk to my Mom every single day I would have said

Yes - yes I know. 

If you had told me 13 years ago the moment that I first found out that I was going to be a Mom that it was going to be the hardest best thing I ever did I would have said

Yes - yes I know and I can't wait.